11:00 pm thoughts – glynismaina

Words escape me as i try not to be cliche,

A struggle I simple do not see how it can be fixed,

Who am I kidding,

I know how to fix it, maybe i’m just lazy,

Lazy or scared?

If I was born an eagle instead of a mortal man

I wouldn’t be surprised if I was the last to fly,

Why,

Fear,

to exit a cocoon that has sheltered me all my life,

Someone once lied to me to use fear as a driving force,

See where that got me?

Nowhere,

Stuck,

And now my brain is bleeding for more than the basic I am giving,

But how,

How do I move forward?

I’ve tried to hide behind geniuses but when will I find my place?

when will I stand on the podium at TED talk to inspire?

To talk of my journey as a writer?

But has this journey even begun?

Have I found that which is of pure matter?

Or do I just chase after the wind?

Maybe I am stuck,

maybe now that i know it I will do something to change it,

Something to get better,

Something to make me greater,

So that i’ll not just be a tired student beating on her keyboard at 11.00 pm

I’ll touch some out there,

Not like others do,

But the way I do.

@glynismaina